Been getting meds for my depression now, and well one of the meds has this neat little side effect of killing my sex drive.

No seriously, I want that side effect because well here is the story.

I am 25 y/o. I live with my parents. I work at a McDonald's which is like the 7th job I have had in the two years I have graduated from college with an engineering degree. I won't ever use my degree and will always be working minimum wage. I have a mild form of autism where I can't learn social skills or read social skills despite being intelligent which causes everyone to think I am just a lazy prick. It's only a matter of time before I get fired again for saying the wrong thing to someone.

I have no money to go out. None of my friends have ever seen a girl of legal age that is single with no kids. All my friends agree with me that it is futile I try to seek out love. (Funny they didn't thing that until about two years ago when I just went down hill and became a total fuckup.) I don't believe in God so I don't go to church, and really would you believe in a God who created your mind to be intelligent in useless things like math and science, but you can't learn social skills and unlike someone who is retarded you aren't innocent and retain a normal sex drive. In short, I will never meet any women let alone the right woman.

Despite all this I am horny and no amount of praying or devirting myself can do it. The pills miraculously cure my sex drive and I can go on with life ignoring beautiful women as I should to begin with.

I ain't got them in yet though so I have to fucking vent what is wrong with me.

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Well sir that seems to be someone else's problem.

As someone who has worked extensively with kids with Asperger's, I know that depression can be an issue but instead of hating the mind you have been given, you could focus on the gifts you have.

I have had quite a number of professors who walk the PDD line as well. Have you considered teaching and tutoring? You could also be tutored in return on how to behave in social situations. I realize the task is much more involved with a 25 year old than with a 7 year old but intensive behavioral therapy works.

To a stranger, like me, I hear depression screaming much louder than the social disorder. Are you sure your meds are adequate? Do you know anything about the GFCF diet? You may want to look into it and see if it helps you feel beter.

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My boss has Asperger's ... she's an attorney and also has no social skills in the real world, but it does well for her in the career side of things ....

Like Lilith ... I hear more of the depression in your comments than the Aspergers ... Sometimes with those meds it can take awhile to get the dosage/mix right ... make sure you let your doctor know it all ... even if you want the side effects, they need to know all of those details to work out what is best for you. Best of luck!!!

And Lil ... is there anything you don't know about ... you amaze me with your insight and knowledge of things!

Lilith,

Well, let's see I could see very little in being a useless storehouse of information, good at math, and well in general interested in religions. (See I can no longer believe in a Christian god and well Paganism doesn't pay their clerics well.)

I was going to teach, but a few months substitute teaching in the inner city and all the obsticles that came with me getting a teaching certificate (money) just really killed that career path. Plus, as a person who has no social skills, I will probably be fired my first year as a professor or teacher for saying the wrong thing to a student. Trust me, I have been fired three times in six months and only keep my current job at McDonald's because a family member is got my back.

I don't have the money to seek counciling in learning social skills, plus there is nothing I have seen that social skills could be taught to someone my age.

Yeah I am depressed. Yeah I am getting the best treatment a person who works at McDonald's and has no health insurance can get. And once I get my meds refilled all desire for human interaction will subside. I don't think there is a person on this board who actualy believes I should seek out a relationship.

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Well sir that seems to be someone else's problem.

fzzy,

I see a state psychiatrist once every 90 days and its a different shrink.

I only see them for 15 minutes, they ask if I am still suicidal, any side effects and they refill my prescriptions.

In and out, no time to sit and pontificate, but I specifically asked to stay on the Remeron becuase it killed my sex drive, and we can all agree guys like should not have a sex drive.

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Well sir that seems to be someone else's problem.

It saddens me that you have such a dismal outlook on your life. If you have desire and passion you can use those emotions and the drive to overcome anything. I truly believe that. I'm not familar with your affliction, but there are always ways to find coping mechanisms, no matter the age. I'm not sure where you are from, but surely there are governmental programs that can aide you and help you on your road of discovering your potential and dreams.

All the negative self talk is very self serving... if you want to be nothing you can talk yourself into that and live up (or down) to the expectations you have set for yourself. Turn the attitue around and have some positive self talk and you just might find that you can turn your expectations in another direction.

It's all up to you, you need to decide what person you want to be, and how you want to live your life ... just know that it doesn't have to be the picture you are presently painting in this thread, unless you choose it to be.

Good luck.

Maddy,

I live in Texas, I am 25 y/o and I work in fast food.

There are no governmental programs other than getting medication to stop the thoughts of killing myself. The Remeron doesn't do anything about that, but it stops the thoughts of wanting a mate.

I see all my passion and desire to be a waste of energy.

I justy want to be happy being alone and working for minimum wage the rest of my life.

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Well sir that seems to be someone else's problem.