I was anally raped last year by a man that I loved. Had found out that he was cheating on me and told him to leave (shortened version!) -----he didn't---------it took me months to accept that this had happened--longer to speak about it. Can now deal with it a wee bit better as realise it was a power thing--nothing to do with sex/love. It really screwed me up----made dangerous and stupid choices for a while---"fuck the pain away"-------but now I am with a sweet guy who makes me feel safe again------I don't have to pretend to be something I am not--------it may take a while,but I feel I am making progress-------the crying is less and the nightmares not as scary. My friends have been excellent and I couldn't ask for more------my family don't know(it would break mum's heart) My man deals with it and how it has left me----not bad for our first 3 months together-------thanks babe.
Sorry for rambling on---and thanks for tking the time to read this!
Hope 03 brings u all peace , strength and love.

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