The old saying "Nice guys finish last" has far exceeded its humor on me a long time ago. I am now 0 for...well I've lost count at this point. I am honestly getting sick and tired of it all.

I the trustworthy guy, the guy that they can turn to, the shoulder to cry on when they yet again have a problem. And what does all of that get me, Nothing but a wet shoulder and ball of anger in the pit of my stomach the likes of which keep me from eating or sleeping well.

I'm just the male equivalent of a girlfriend. I'm there when they need to talk. I go with them to the movies. I take them out on the town when they want to go out. Why, because they feel safe with me. But I'm apparently not good enough to date.

Am I to be stuck for ever in the roll of the protector. Christ the group Five for Fighting was right with their song Superman. I bleed and I dream but to most people that isn't important. As long as I am there to save them my needs and wants matter not.

I'm tired of being superman, I'm tired of being the hero, I'm tired of crawling in to bed every night and not having somebody there next to me. I just want a life.

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"...I won't be your winter...and I won't be anyones excuse to cry."

"Even heroes have the right to bleed."

"I'm wakin up at the start of the end of the world