First thing I'd do is check the packets of all the meds you're taking for details of side effects.

This is a delicate question, but has the doctor prescribed any anti-depressants for helping you to deal with your recent loss? If so, that's the first med packet I'd check, since I happen to know that anti-depressants can affect both male and female orgasm in strange ways.

If none of your meds carry warnings about side effects such as this, I'd go to your doctor. A friend of mine has a problem whereby the ejaculate he produces drains, harmlessly into his bladder, rather than coming out of his urethra, so it maybe something like that, so don't panic that it's something serious.

You sound like you've been through a whole lot recently so good luck with it all sweetie.

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