This is it then. I've had a hell of a night. I've said some terrible things I wish I could take back. I apparently am a laughing stock of this group and according to Steph many other groups. If I say now that you are right in the attention-seeking part, that will be more bullshit. (But I think you are right. That's been my whole life. God Fucking Damnit. Who the hell cares? When will I learn that?) I've painted myself into a corner by just trying to be honest with whatever came up at the time. Now I have to drop all internet groups because of my bad reputation. I don't know which ones think I'm an ass or not. I will never get anything right. I know you don't believe a thing I say, who would, when even I'm not sure what I'm saying.
Thank you Step for teaching me to keep my fucking mouth shut about anything sad, bad, wrong, or messed up.

If I could make this right I would. But fuck me for trying cause there's nothing I can do now. I've gone too far.