I'm not gonna bother to say that it wasn't your fault...just about everyone else that's posted has said so no use in me sayign it is there? I've had more than a few of my friends raped. Been nearly raped myself on quite a few occasions. The ones that I remember the most are when I was 5, 7 and 16. The first two were by my step-sisters' father...he decided that he liked little defenseless girls I guess. I've never really been able to get over it, even talking about it doesn't always help.

I just don't understand how people can do sick things like that. The third time was by a guy I had a crush on, he was drunk so maybe it wasn't his fault. Maybe it was mine for leading him on. I don't know but I know after that I haven't been able to be comfortable at parties or aruond guys I don't know. I can't seem to trust them. I keep looking over my shoulder and wondering if one of them will succeed where the others failed. You hear lots about girls being raped on the news, especially lately. And every night I come home from school, looking over my shoulder and wondering if tonight will be my turn.