there is a kind-of up side to this ... the tech found my other kidney. i always thought i had only one, but there it was in my pelvic area. it's probably why i can't have kids the normal way. i miscarried between my two kids but i didn't know it and it took an ultrasound to find out that things hadn't progressed the way they should have. my screwy kidney is probably why i needed a d&e after instead of nature doing it's job. (((eastern))) i know how devastating that can feel. it's why i get so uptight before any ultrasound ... i'm just waiting for the doc to say "i'm so sorry..."

with two c-secs under my belt, the decision for surgery has been made for me so taking care of the other things at the same time just seems logical. i'm not too nervous about it. i know there are risks, but i just don't have a choice really.

thank you wildirish, i know you care, i can feel the love (((hugs))). i have to share something with you ... we have a friend who had the "one percent baby" after a vasectomy.

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some fairly sordid tales, rambles, and anecdotes
Hypothetically Speaking * Something More * Cammy Interrupted * An Experimental Vacation * Masked * so..damn..hot * Thank You * My toy, his idea * no.19 Maple Lane * I Have A Surprise For You * Yesterday * In a Quiet Kitchen * help me decide * untitled prose * more untitled prose