Everything you are saying I have heard from my own mouth and heart as well. You are not alone. I would urge you to focus on something else and try not to allow yourself to become wrapped up in the emotional roller coaster. For me it was a long process and it really wasted some precious time. It may not become a long process for you but you should try to avoid starting a routine or cycle of feelings that leaves you depressed for 2 weeks out of a month just in case.

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