Hi rzande1,
I do not know the whole story that relvolves around this girl, but from what I have read in what you wrote I am glad that you decided to give up on her, she didn't really seem like the one who was best for a life-long commitment. I am glad that you have been able to realize what she is really like before you made some serious mistakes with her.

As for going out and meeting new people, I am not sure on the surrounding in your area, so I suggest to go soe places where you have interests, such as library, mall, gatherings, bars, clubs, or even try meeting someone through mutual friends

Well I am going out to coffeeshops and malls. Also bookstores. The thing is that I am totally not well confident in asking women or approaching them. i honestly dont have any idea how to.

rzande1

You're still trying.

Don't approach, just let them bump into you.

A little eye contact and a shy smile tells them you're interested, let them make the next move.

You know it is funny. It is totally ironic that really I have lost the care to even wanna talk to a woman anymore. I just kinda dont wanna bother anymore because of the heartbreak that always comes with it. It is like the stress and all the bs is just not worth it. Yea pretty much i can say I just dont care anymore LOL. I dont even bother looking at women anymore. No it isnt that I am gay but I just lost all those urges. Actually what is really ironic is that if some chick came up to me and talked to me I dont think I would even bother showing interest to her.

It'll take some time, but my suggestion is keep her out of your life - don’t be friends, don’t occasionally boink her, no calls, nothing.

In time your memory of her will fade and by that time, you'll have met someone else.

Good luck to you.

JP

yea so basically I am still heart broken.

Holidays can be tough that's for sure. Believe us though, it really does just take some time. You'll get there. Really, you will.

Try to have a Merry Christmas. There's an awful lot of good things out there to be happy about/thankful for.

I saw her last night. we were hanging out for dinner and a movie and had sex. It sucks. she was talking to me and crying because she didn't want to hurt me. she said she just didn't understand why she didn't love me like she used to. I am friends with her cause ithat is the kind of person I am. I just don't know. I don't feel bad. I feel nothing.

Not bloody hard enough!...Ya need to move on...as you've been told on each thread shitloads of times!!

Slap yaself harder, pick yaself up, dust yaself of, chalk it down to a crappy experience & FFS grab ya life by the horns and go for it!!

ffs? what is that? Anyway it is starting to leave shock and go into anger.

ffs = for fucks sake

well on the bright side I got a good contract finally. help me get another too. Anyway I just don't get why I put myself through this. I mean come on she doesn't love me that way and wants to just be my friend. I need to accept that. It is just tough for me. She is the first woman to accept me for who I am and actually take interest in me. No other woman ever has done that. I am scared that no one ever will again. I mean yea she is hot and well it is tough to give her up. I joke I was spoiled with her because I am very unattractive and she is ultra hot. lol I seriously was sitting yeasterday waiting for her to get out of work at the mall and I honestly didn't even notice any women there. I was just in a zombie like state like I always am. lol my friend frank said a woman needs to strip down infront of me and wave those sticks they use at the airport to direct planes to get my attention. It truly is funny too because when she noticed me yeasterday she smiled and waved and it sent such a rush through me. I was feeling depressed and it instantly made me jump for joy. I just want her to be happy.

It really just hurts so much. I feel so empty without her. I dont know what do do really. I wish I knew what I could do to fix it. I hate to say it but I need a hug. Is it the worst when you loose your first love or does it get worse?

:rolleyes:

Almost everyone loses their first love.

It's part of growing up.

We survived, you will too.